The moment when I hit the bottom.

This time I had to hit it to be reborn.

I had to hit it so hard with all my pain and fear inside.

Nothing else was left. I had to feel the emptiness.

Cry it out loud. Do complete self-destruction and self-sabotage.

I needed to dissolve into a state to make myself feel a desire again.

To make myself believe and hope.

To go back to the eternal search of my own Nirvana.

Self portrait/ Made in Procreate / 2022